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Another move is getting ready to happen and I did that thing I always do, where I stress out and fret over the details and snap at the husband. And yet, here we are again and things have worked out just fine. As usual. You think I would have learned by now, but every three months when we get down to less than 10 days until a move I can feel the fear and uncertainty creeping up and clenching my chest and it tightens and tightens and tightens until everything is in finalized and in place. Then its a huge moment of relief and then talking to myself "Ashley, let's not do this again. It has worked out how many times before, its fine. And what is the worst that could happen?" And honestly, the worst that could happen? A job would fall through after we payed for leases and furniture and we would be out a few thousand dollars or a job wouldn't come up and we would drive home to Michigan. The worst scenario really isn't that bad, yet I still get consumed by anxiety over this process.
It's funny too, because I think I thrive on change and adventure. Controlled adventure. I have always been a person to get bored really quickly. I reach my peak at a job and am ready to move on really quickly. I worked so many jobs from age 16+ simply because I wanted to experience everything. I was an assistant manager at Limited Too, an assistant manager at IKEA, Atlanta, I sold vespas in Atlanta for a few months, I worked as a band promotor, I worked as a display consultant and manager for Bath &Body Works, Ann Taylor Loft and Banana Republic. I worked at Chik-Fil-A, I was a barista at Starbucks for a few short months, worked as a sales girl, then shipping girl, then shipping manager, then copywriter and marketer for a nutraceutical company, I have waitressed at a few places, worked as Clinique consultant and done freelance makeup. I have always done freelance writing here and there, and now I am diving into the world of photographry and food writing. I just can't make up my mind is part of it, the other part is that I want to experience everything and try my hand at things. I would love to be a fitness instructor of some sort in the future, publish a novel and take pretty photos. I would also like to get payed to eat at restaurants and write about them for a local paper. Dreams.
But I say that because despite these week long stints of anxiety ridden madness, I know how very blessed we are right now to be able to travel. I know that I have seen more parts of the country than some people ever will. I have seen oceans, mountains, rivers, deserts and it has touched me and become a part of me. Each city we live in has molded us in a way, and left its mark in some way. Sure, it has been hard at times to be away from our families, to not have any real roots and to feel like we are living out of a suitcase at times. I know that one day when we move back and are living somewhere permanently, I will crave the adventurous part of our lives that we are experiencing right now. I will miss it, and think of these times as some of the best in my life. The times where we can get a phone call late one night and be driving across the entire United States the next day, the times where we are cramming our lives into a single vehicle and driving to an unknown, the times where we had only each other to rely on and cling to when we felt all alone in a big city.
So for now, I have to keep reminding myself to soak it up, every single bit... to drink it in with big breaths and pause and appreciate every moment because it won't last forever. I can't wait to see what NorCal brings to our lives, to see what secrets, treasures, adventures and memories we will walk away with.... only two more days...
Over & Out,
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